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Wednesday, October 15, 2008


Have been going back for dinner as usual... It's very different nowadays... in these couple of weeks! The atmosphere is all different... Dylan & I will greet them as we stepped into the house... Proceed straight to the kitchen... scope our rice & some dishes on our plates then proceed to the living room for dinner... As usual we will watch TV while eating... By the time we reached... They have already finished their dinner... So they will be sitting in their respective chairs watching TV.

After dinner... I will bring the plates/bowls in for washing... Whereas Dylan will start playing with them... When done with the washing... I will just sit on the sofa folding clothes & watching TV... Everything is just the same as before... The procedures didn't change... But the people, the atmosphere, the environment, the mood are all different... The feeling is kinda awkward! We don't chat like usual... don't discuss on matters as usual... don't exchange comments as usual... They watch their TV... I fold the clothes! Sometimes... I just felt so meaningless going back for dinner... Like only the "shell" going back for dinner... the "soul" is not there!

Actually beforehand I did mention to Elvin that we shall settle our own dinner... Be it I cook or we eat outside... He agreed but... Sigh! Think twice it's not a very good idea... Not because of $, not because of food, not because of saving cost! It's all because if we don't go back for dinner then I guess Elvin & Dylan's relationship with them will become very distant... They don't drop by our house as & when, they have their own programs during weekends... In other words, they won't look for us if we don't go to them... So if I were to just don't bother don't care, I can simply avoid going back for dinner... Then it will be like only meet-up during ocassions... But that's not right?! Just not right you see! It shouldn't be that way?!

If 我不会做人的话, I can just tell Elvin that we stay home for dinner... Then just let things be the way it will be! Relationship distant, distant lor! Only meet up during ocassion or festivals then be it lor! Anyway won't affect me much! But cannot like this right?! I always believe never do things to the extreme... Moreover I'm not childish lah... C'mon... Mother of 1 kid & 1 more-to-come... Still so childish meh?! Unlike some people... I don't want to mention who or give comments as I don't see the need to!

I told Elvin about it... & he understands totally what I'm talking about! He didn't say anything but just a "saiyang" on my head... I think that's good enough... Just like the song "more than words can say"... Somethings don't have to spell out just a gesture or so will do!

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